Since my last post, September 2019, life was full of mental anguish. Around that time, I had stepped into a leader position with the company I was working for. I was 6 months into the role, and let's just say life got very difficult. The job got almost unbearable: the hours, the demands, my boss. I was directed to do things that went against my ethical morals, I heard and saw things that went completely against my views. The expectations of late hours and non stop phone calls/text was hung over my head on a daily basis. The company I worked for unfortunately did not turn out to be what they preached their values were. My soul was not at rest for over a year and I was mentally exhausted....then COVID-19 hit. That threw me overboard. The company's de-moralizing values were clear as day, and I was devastated to finally know that at the end of it all...all they cared about was the bottom line. I was broken because I really had high hopes to maybe one day retire from this company. My soul grew almost so tired that I could barely keep myself together at work. I purposely scheduled to be out for a surgery, just to get a way. While I was physically recovering, my mental health was too. My inner peace was back and felt like me again. As my medical leave end date was fast approaching, I felt my anxiety creeping back up again. I finally made the best decision of my life...I resigned. I threw away my toxic work environment and all the negative vibes with it. Life has been amazing. I wake up each morning, so thankful that I moved past it. The bags under my eyes have magically disappeared. My hair and skin look amazing. I play with my daughter more and focus on her well-being. I've put my focus back on my husband and kids, were it should have been all along and not on a job. It hurts to know that I threw my family on the back burner for a job that could replace me in a month, for a job that didn't care about it's employees, for a job that allowed my boss to continue working there without repercussions from all the unethical things he did. But I am thankful that I am were I am at now, in peace....
Until next time friends